Alright people! This is the right time I need someones help, and anyone. I'm usually the one who keeps friendships and other relationships together, and it seems that I cant keep my own together.. So tell me this now. I have three friends, Kendra, Stephanie and Shaina. Well, they are cool in some ways, but they call me gay everyday, or at least kendra does and then I guess everyone else follows along. Anyways, i have an ex best friend, and I stopped and talked to her between 5 and 10 minutes. Kendra, Stephanie and Shaina go put my book bag in the boys bathroom, which I really could care less cause I'd walk in there anyways. Heh, thats not the point, anyways the point is, when I talked to my Ex best friend yesterday, I get blamed for hanging out with her today. I mean I admit I dislike her in some ways but I can tolerate her since we've not been talking for a while. Anyways, they accuse me of hanging with her yesterday, as well as saying i've been acting weird ever since spring break, which they never gave me an example, so I dont know what they mean. After that, they seemed to talk about me BEHIND my back, in class. I can careless about what they say, just dont go behind my back and say it, if you have to say something, SAY IT TO MY FACE. Well, after all that I didnt hang with them after school, and probably wont for a while, I just hung in a teachers room or in the library... There is an upcoming Dollywood trip coming up in our Chorus class, and they are all in it, and we were going to be one group, i'm questioning myself on if I should go or not.. what do you think? I really need someones advide, I dont care what it is, I just need some.. I've been giving advice all my life, and worrying about other peoples problems other then mine, until today. Please help me with this...if anyone is out there...

-Ally

Well, I best start writing in my diary and this isnt going to be long since I'm in school and all. ^_^ I have to start sometime though dont I? Either way this is the first post.. Wooo! Since I have been here I've been way to lazy to do anything on here, but now i'm getting back into the groove. Well, when I got up this morning, and started to school, it started off bad like yesterday.. cause the other day, like sunday my grandmother wanted to go four wheeling and shes still mad at me that I didnt wanna go. How f'ed up is that?! Anyways, now everymorning she wakes me up with a mean hateful tone like always and I wish my dad would get back from his long haul trip.. >_< ... My bestest friend Josh, or "BD" is soon to go into the AF, and I dont know what to think, i've known him for a month and finally now, just when I'm starting to open up more, he has to leave.. which makes me rather sad when I think about it.. oh.. and If your reading this Josh, you have that damn song stuck in my head now and it plays over and over.. anyways I have to go, and I love ya guys ~.^ Toodles.

-Ally