[Faith.Hope.Love]'s diary
"Don't Toy With My Heart"
| Don't Toy With My Heart; don't play your game, Don't mess with my mind, call it love as you claim. Don't tease me, don't taunt me, don't tantalize... Don't lie, don't cheat, nor try to disguise, The fake in your heart you are feeling, Pass me by, mine you're not stealing. My love I'll give to a heart who'll return it And not to a heart who'll only burn it. So please... Don't even knock upon the door of my heart, And there'll be no finish without a start, To bring me heartache and pain to endure Is not what I want nor am I looking for. One piece of advice before you leave, The day is coming when you shall grieve, Not for the hearts you've hurt in your wake, But for your own when it becomes at stake. Don't Toy With My Heart; don't play your game. Keep on truckin' and bear the shame, For one who plays with another's emotions, Will weep one day rivers and oceans. If you don't love me, then leave me be, There are many, many more fish in the sea, One day you'll fall for a heart like your own And you shall reap just what you've sown. |
| The time has come to phase you out, The year is here, I've no doubt. You've had your fun; you've had your way, Your time is up, your time of play. There is another who is real And will not hurt me or make me feel Regretful and sorry for loving and caring. It is with him I'll be sharing, My heart, my spirit, my soul, my love. He'll be the one I'll now dream of. |
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-01-29 02:11:00
Inspired by Johann. <3</center>
"I Love To Practice"
| There's so many things I Love To Practice, Some I succeed at, and some I miss. There's art and writing, reading a book, Playing music and love to cook, Whether it's cooking up love or a delicious meal, Practice makes perfect, the better I feel, About myself, a continual work, Progressive I hope, the positive perk. I Love To Practice being caring and kind, To see with my heart with an open mind; Being grateful each day for all my blessin's And even for learning the harder of lessons. I Love To Practice and with earnest pursue, The best I can be to be worthy of you; To keep my expectations of others low, While my own set high and kept in tow. I Love To Practice, the practice of giving, Helping others is really the essence of living, For when bringing joy to another's heart, You invest in your own, most deepest part. |
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-01-29 12:02:00 (EST)
Thanks for the inspiration, Steven Krohn. <3 </center>
"Garden Of Blessings"
| I am blessed in many ways, too many ways to tell, And gratitude for them given, deep inside doth dwell. For a blessing to be fulfilled though, shared it must be, So the hearts of others can be touched is the key. When a blessing blooms, it must be pollinated By others than from the vessel by which it was created, So the blessing can procreate, reproduce and multiply, And not left to wither or shrivel up and die. When we share our blessings, we sow an ever blooming garden, And along with caring and compassion, we must also give pardon, For when we cultivate with elements of love, we nourish To keep our gardens blooming and brightly they will flourish. We are all given blessings, A fragrant and various array, And when we combine and share them, Gardens of splendor we all can then display! |
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-01-25 10:25:00 (EST)
Inspired by and thank you Ramanjit. :) </center>
When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself, and his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help. That’s the message he is sending.
Thich Nhat Hanh
| Sharing from Amy... This is likely one of the most difficult lessons to learn in life... in spite of another causing you grief, maintain an open heart to try and understand things from the offender's perspective. People act and react in accordance with what they are dealing with themselves, whether it be near the surface or deeply rooted. To say THIS is an easy task, would be a fallacy. It isn't easy because one's first instinct is to return in some way to the other the hurt another is causing them. So it takes control and restraint and "maturity". However, with this said, it doesn't mean that when another hurts you, wrongs you, you don't have the right to defend yourself "against the wrongdoing". We must also defend ourselves because we are in charge of our own defense. Others are not. So to try and handle this "emotional divide" within oneself IS very difficult because on one side of the line, you want to understand why, to offer help to the other person offending you. But then, on the other side of that line, you also must defend yourself. So in trying to maintain clear differentiatio I think though, if we can target our frustration "on the offense" as opposed to "on the offender", this helps to keep the dividing line more clear. So if one must hate, then hate the 'offense', NOT the 'offender'. There is a very big difference. ..And if you direct your anger and frustration at the 'offense' rather than the 'offender', you will remain open to forgiveness, understanding, and perhaps most importantly, closed to bitterness and resentment.. hatred from entering into your own heart. I have found in my many interactions with people, there really aren't that many people who truly grasp and understand this concept but yet, it is such a valuable one to learn and I do believe that every parent and/or guardian of a child needs to learn this and practice this with the children they have influence with. Never say, "Bad child!" But say instead, "Bad what you did, but I know you have good and much better in you." There is such a huge difference because the child then associates bad with their behaviour, but NOT with themselves. When one tells a child that "they" are bad, then the child will start believing that "they" themselves are bad and so, will just begin to not care if they behave badly or not because they've been told they are bad anyway. ..And as much as this may sound trite or trivial in regards to adults, it really isn't. Two wrongs never make a right. It's not easy to control our reactions to bad or wrong treatment, but then... "The path of least resistance is also the path of least rewards." ..And it's not something we can always succeed at doing, especially when a wrong is being done to us continually and repeatedly. But it's still important to strive for directing our anger at the action versus the act initiator nonetheless. I firmly believe that ANY issue can be resolved through communication and if through the communication the 'issue' is addressed rather than the one or ones causing the issue, then an amicable and mutually beneficial resolution can be reached. But when one party likes to pretend there is no problem or chooses to think that ignoring an issue and it will resolve on its own, either one of these options is NOT an option for resolving anything and these reactions are not only indicative of a lack of maturity but also indicate that the unwilling party wishes not to resolve anything, but instead just wants to keep the pot stirred up. ..And the only reason a person and/or people involved would want to keep the pot stirred up is because the person and/or people involved is/are feeding off of the drama being created. If they weren't feeding off of the drama themselves, then they would want to work to resolve the matter. ..And when those involved say things like: "Eh, I can't be bothered." and "I don't get involved." (although they are already) and "There's nothing I can do." ..etc.. <~ These are nothing more than "cop outs" and only show a callous attitude of apathy and indifference and it's people like this that ALLOW and ENABLE the wrongdoers of the world to get away with their transgressions against others and humanity as a whole. ..And in my situation, since "I" have been the one to suggest and/or offer viable ways to work out what I'm being subjected to and those on the opposing side are the ones balking at the idea, THIS then makes the opposition at fault, not I, and so, "they" ARE the "drama kings and queens" and if they were "mature adults", they'd see this. |
https://www.fa
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Working on my website again: https://sites.
It's so much fun to get logged out WHILE you're in the middle of editing a page! grrrrr
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| Yup! You're lucky to get #1 and then #2, but even so, they are just words unless #3, the stand up to the plate, the "accountabilit on to "back the words with supporting action". The "what can I do to make it right" part requires "effort". |
| "Shallow waters serve little good, Lack of depth, understood. Stagnant minds breed pests, Always are unwanted guests!" |
~ Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-01-14
"Castle Of Truth"
| Build your castle on the sand Instead of on the rock And the tide will come in With the ticking of the clock. But when the tide returns To the wild of the sea It will steal your castle No longer will it be. Build your castle on the truth Not upon lies and deceit And your castle will withstand No storm shall defeat! |
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-01-14 18:07:00 (EST)
#Quote
"Deaf ears, closed heart, blind eyes, not smart!" ~ Artsieladie
Sharing a simple but so true statement from Amy Ames Christie: "If someone is hiding something they are doing something wrong."
Right! So the wiki-page, "Calls_To_Myse
So.. again: "If someone is hiding something they are doing something wrong."
..And so... If the person implicated is the one who hides from public view the data that implicates him, I think it's more than reasonable to conclude that the person hiding it... IS DOING SOMETHING WRONG!
The proof is in the pudding:
Page name: Calls_To_Mysel
Version: 29
2011-08-29 17:59:34
Last author: [Hedda]
Owner: Artsieladie
Here's the link to the wiki-page the "last author" HID from the public's view:
http://elftown
Again I ask: If "I" am the liar as the "last author" is claiming that I am and is doing so across the Internet and is using "this excuse" to STEAL MY WORKS, then WHY did "he hide" a wiki-page that contains data implicating "him" with the tampering of "my" phone?
..And if the staff, past and present, who run/have run the website of elftown.eu aren't "aiding and abetting" the "last author" (and website/server owner), wouldn't it also stand to reason that "they" would look further into and investigate this matter? So, WHY aren't they? Any answers, Faith?
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"Calls To Myself" defined: By a "Call To Myself" I mean that "my" number was calling "my" number WHILE I was online AND using "dial-up" and with dial-up one CANNOT be online AND use their phone at the same time.
I had purchased International Calling for the sole purpose to call Hedda and give him a chance to explain things to me and I did so because I didn't want to believe that Hedda would tamper with 'anything' of mine, especially considering all I had done for, contributed, and donated to him which is a profound amount. I tried to call him MANY times, directly dialed each time, but every time I tried, my call would never go through. Instead, the line went dead and then back to dial tone again. ...With ONE exception.
One day I had thought of trying something a bit different and this was to call him IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING one of those "Calls To Myself" I kept getting. I entered his number in for direct dialing so all I'd have to do is hit the re-dial button and placed the phone right next to me for quick and immediate access. I moved the connection of my computer to my phoneline to easy to grab and disconnect access. All this was to disconnect my computer from the Internet immediately and not bothering to sign off with AOL because signing off took too long. ...And also while hitting the re-dial button simultaneously AND so I could make an IMMEDIATE call to him IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING a "Call To Myself" whenever it would come through. I can't explain why I somehow knew the importance of making a call to him IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING a "Call To Myself" other than my intuition told me it was key. I was READY!
By and by and not too awfully long did I have to wait when sure enough, another "Call To Myself" came through: https://sites.
WITHIN SECONDS I was disconnected from the Internet and placing a call to Sweden! I heard it ring 4 times. He answered and this is how the conversation unfolded:
Hedda: "Hello"
Me: "Hello. Is this Henrik Wallin?"
Hedda: "Yes"
Me: "Do you know who this is?"
Hedda: "Yes, Artsie."
Me: "I would just like to talk to you."
Hedda: "If you don't like me, please don't call me again."
Click... conversation ended.
This is my Verizon bill showing my call that finally went through: https://sites.
When he said the last statement and hung up, I was surprised at what he said and I didn't understand why he did say such a thing. So I did try again to call him back, but all I got then was automated Swedish talk that I couldn't understand and so hung up. But... the line was STILL open and not made so I was taken back to dial tone again as I had been in the MANY attempts before I was finally able to make a connection. I think I may have surprised him with a call IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING a "Call To Myself" and I dare say, he wasn't expecting? ..And so he didn't have the time to open up the line, make the "Call To Myself" and then close it off BEFORE my callback came through. ..And being taken by surprise and so, not knowing just what to say, he blurted out the first thing that entered his head that would alleviate the pressure of being caught "red handed". I purchased International calling solely to give him the opportunity to clear things up, to explain to me why he wasn't behind all the bizarre incidents I kept experiencing. IF I didn't like him, would "I" have even bothered? Not likely.
Very important question is raised here though. How did Hedda KNOW "with NO hesitation" WHO was calling him? How many people live in the US? How many have phones? But yet, he KNEW EXACTLY "who" was calling him? Please notice, Hedda never asked, "Who is calling?" It's because he didn't have to ask because he already knew! What are the odds that Hedda would know right away just "who" was calling him and from another country? ..And even if my actual name came up, he didn't say, "Sharon". He said, "Artsie". ..And also, if my actual name came up, it still does not guarantee it's that person. It could be someone else "using my phone". But he stated "Artsie" without hesitation and with complete confidence he was correct.
But even so, with this interesting notation, there's something also that's very interesting. Those "Calls To Myself"? They STOPPED! After being able to finally reach him IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING a "Call To Myself", these "Calls To Myself" STOPPED HAPPENING! ..Until that is, I began putting the wiki-page together almost 2 years later on 2011-03-01. If "he" had nothing to do with the "Calls To Myself", then WHY did they STOP when I made a surprise call to him IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING a "Call To Myself"? Then to add to his 'obvious involvement' and so, guilt, he "hides" the data from public view?
..And he is calling ME the liar? Using THIS as an excuse to slander MY name and STEAL MY WORK?
Whether you go there or not any longer, Faith, is neither here nor there. The facts are still the facts and the facts raise SERIOUS questions that are not being addressed. If Hedda is NOT guilty, then WHY is he hiding evidence? One doesn't have to be active on the site now to answer this.
It is just SO amazing that when the staff who have and are running the site can use the slightest opportunity to belittle and humiliate me, they've done so. BUT... when I PROVIDE PROOF of what I'm saying IS TRUE, why suddenly, not one of them have anything to say? So what? Sweep it under the carpet "as is" so those involved will never be held accountable? ..And particularly the website's owner? Is this how you work, Faith? If so, then I am REALLY surprised because you've always seemed to be the person who wanted to KNOW the truth AND THIS IS what you also told me. Did you just say this? ..Or did you mean it?
Didn't you, Faith, and several other crew/staff members, past and present, tell me to just accept the fact that silverfire put the heart in my badge slot? ..And tell me to stop making up crap that wasn't true? Well, here's the proof that Hedda DID place the heart in my badge slot AND he also REMOVED IT when he banned me on 2009-04-08 (sunrose's birthday). So please, tell me again that I must "accept THIS lie"! Please tell me again to stop making up crap with the proof that shows I wasn't making ANYTHING up! Here's the link:
http://elfpack
I'm NOT trying to be difficult. I'm just trying to get THIS I'm being subjected to, to STOP! If someone was "invading YOUR privacy" and to the extent mine is, wouldn't YOU want to have something done about it to stop it?
..And here's some more interesting "implicating" data:
http://elfpack
https://www.fa
#Poetry #LoveUnitesHat
"Love UNITES; Hate DIVIDES"
Love UNITES; Hate DIVIDES,
In us all both resides,
But within us all we have a choice,
To choose which we'll in, rejoice.
Hate and darkness with jealousy and fear
Or love and light to value, endear.
We all have choices, are given free will,
To choose which vessel we will fulfill.
But remember...
For darkness there's always light,
To guide us, to keep us...
Onto the path of right.
So should the darkness ourselves consume,
Light awaits to release us from the gloom.
For the magic of love prevails in light,
Can pierce the darkest, the blackest of night.
In love and light, happiness reigns,
Unites in peace, everyone gains.
We each are one, but we're all "of One",
Unity is a must for the task to be done
Of peace and harmony for One and for All
And so we each must answer the call
To Unite in Love and against hate rebel,
So we all on Earth can in harmony dwell.
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-01-11 15:26:00 (EST)
Inspirational credit: Thank you Qazi Qamaruddin for being such an inspiration, promoting and spreading the invaluable message of Love and Peace. <3
Offer love through its many wonderful components. If your adversary continues forward with their tactics of hatred and its dark and
negative components, still offer the components of love because just as the actions of the hater are a reflection of the hater, so will
your actions of love be a reflection of you. ..And I would much rather be able to claim and reflect positive actions of love than to be
like my haters with their negative reflections of hate. :) <3
So those who hate me? *shrugs* It's a reflection of YOU and NOT of me! :)
"Hate Imprisons; Love Frees"
So, if in your heart hate doth dwell,
I pity you in your darkened cell,
For hatred imprisons its captured soul,
And eventually will devour, a costly toll.
Meanwhile a heart filled with love,
Is filled with joy and light thereof.
And so a heart with love is free
To live contented in harmony.
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-01-11 16:27:00 (EST)</center>
#Poetry
"Smiles and Hugs"
:)'s and (( hugs ))| Smiles and hugs to give are free, So no need to selfish be. Give a hug with a smile, Give a hug to bring a smile, To another's heart, To another's face. Spread love and kindness EVERY place. Since smiles and hugs nothing cost, There's all to gain with nothing lost. So be generous for the more you give, The more and happier hearts will live. Smiles and hugs, the magic of, Is because they're made of love. |
Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly 2014-01-10 18:07:00 (EST)</center>
Thanks to Adam Jones for this share.. :)
| THIS is SO true! Yup, you can give and give and give AND do and do and do for another or others and it will be accepted, taken, etc. and gladly. BUT.... should you make ONE mistake, even a teensy-tinsy ONE... OR should you question or object to something THEY are doing wrong, either against you or others, and DEFEND yourself and/or others against the wrongdoing,... all of a sudden YOU BECOME SH** and everything you've done for and given to is ALL DISMISSED and FORGOTTEN. BUT... should you REMIND them of what you've gladly done and given, well, you are then said to be "glorifying yourself"! :( However, there is and there never can be anything wrong in "the giving" when "given from the heart". The ONLY WRONG that can be is on the recipient's end, should the recipient choose to be greedy, selfish, and unappreciative to receive. <3 A greedy, selfish, and unappreciative recipient is then nothing more than a low-life, a despicable human being. So, yeah, I've been kicked to the curb by Mr. I Spy who's invading my privacy, my name is being smeared by Mr. I Spy, and he's STEALING MY WORK... but THIS says a whole lot more negative in regards to Mr. I Spy than it does about me. I gave from my heart WILLINGLY in MEGA amounts without limits of time, effort, and even gave money and how I've been treated in return is despicable. So THIS doesn't lessen "my integrity", but it sure "flatlines" his!!! ...And anyone and everyone who are aiding and abetting him either by helping him or keeping silent about what they know is wrong (enablers/bysta flatlined" status!!! |