[Faith.Hope.Love]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2014-02-20
Written: (3881 days ago)

Wow, I finally had the opportunity to talk to someone having the same or similar amount of knowledge as Hedda, who also lives in Sweden btw. I explained some of the stuff I've been experiencing over the years and he explained to me a bit of how they certainly CAN be done and with just the small amount of info I gave him, he said quote." You are NOT imagining ANYTHING nor WHO!"

When you go through something like this, you experience many moments/times in which you begin to doubt yourself and when you deal with people who have not a clue as to just what you are experiencing, they will downplay and minimise what you are going through. But when you connect with someone who has the same or similar knowledge who knows that such profound surveillance abilities ARE possible AND when you provide them with accountings and supporting data and then they conclude the same as you have, it's a feeling I can't really describe. When what you have concluded by data and evidence collected along with logged events related and then hand this over to a person having the knowledge to and does draw the same conclusions as you have, then it actually does sink in that you're not just imagining everything as others who have no or little knowledge are trying to force you to think and/or want/expect you to believe.

He explained to me how I was able to ONLY be able to get through to Hedda IMMEDIATELY following a "Call_To_Myself" (a call from my 'own' number TO my 'own' number while online using dial-up), how access can be obtained of my landline phone conversations AND how the automated message from a non-working number can be transferred over to voicemail so that when anyone called me they were greeted with: "The number you have dialed is not in service." ..And he said that the reason likely why I didn't get any more "Calls To Myself" after I was able to finally make a phone connection was because the person doing it realised that I had figured out or would figure out just WHO was initiating the "Calls To Myself" AND having the data that I have and placing it where others could see would definitely make the person tampering very uncomfortable with such data out there and so naturally they would want to hide it from the public because they wouldn't want others knowing what they were doing.

He explained how access to my website can be obtained without the website owner even being the wiser and so that anything and everything that took place on that site, the info would then be transferred back to the person who had set such up and this info would include IP addresses, passwords, email, edits, etc.. He also told me that as soon as someone accesses a site, the person who owns the site/server knows all sorts of identifiable information which they can then use to track any user AND including their "specific device(s)". I explained to him that when I got my new computer, I made damn sure I never went to a heddate site from it. He said, yeah, but you went to your own and once you logged into your own site, a person with remote/anonymous access to it would automatically be provided with your 'new' identifiable information which would 'include' your new computer's ID.

I learned a wealth of information because we talked for over 3 hours. I've only mentioned a little here. It just feels so good to talk to someone who actually listens and then values not only what you have to say, but your reasoning, and your reasoning based on the data you were smart enough to collect and document. He said that I certainly have enough that definitely pinpoints one person and I hardly scratched the surface.

When I told him how I've been treated, told I'm a paranoid lunatic, told that I should just 'cease and desist', told and labeled as a liar, a drama queen, that I need mental help, etc. etc., he said that of course you'd get treated this way because they don't want to acknowledge that you're smarter than they are and they want to put you down to try and deter you from exposing them. If they can convince you that you're crazy then this lets them off the hook. But don't listen to them, don't let them tell you anything of the sort. You have the upper hand because you have what they are afraid of and you are what they aren't.

136111  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2014-02-19
Written: (3882 days ago)

"When a person can still love another who has brought them pain, then such a person is a 'keeper'." ~ #ArtsieladieQuotes

136104  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2014-02-17
Written: (3884 days ago)

"Monster"


Everywhere I go a monster tags along,
No matter what I do, everything is wrong. :'(
It seems he has attached himself to my life, to me,
No matter what I do I can't of him shake free.

I do not wish to slay the monster,
He just needs to get a life,
One that doesn't cause me
All this stress and strife.

Many friends fear the monster
And so their distance keep,
But I cannot blame them
For fear of what they'll reap,
If they stand too close,
Or stand in my defense
Because he is a jealous monster
Wrath he will dispense.

So this battle I must fight
Mostly by myself, alone,
Praying for the strength
I'll need to be my very own,
Until the day will come when,
At last I will be free
Of the monster who delights in
And lives to torment me.

Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-02-16 21:30:00

Inspirational credit: The Monster :'(

Gee, it's really so amazing how I can still see the rose inside the monster.... :'( ...but yet I'm accused of being consumed with hatred when there isn't even a spec of hatred in my heart. :'(

"The Rose Amidst The Thorns"


As my way is made among the thorns,
An inner beauty a rose adorns.
A darkness present, tries to hide,
Still, the rose blooms bright inside.

The thicket of thorns, of brambles too,
Meant to discourage my getting through
To reach the rose, the sweetness of,
To taste, to touch, to feel its love.

There's ice that's formed in places thick,
Yet, cause me not to make judgment quick.
For a rose to grow needs warmth and care,
So more than cold is dwelling there.

The blooming rose, its beauty showing,
Incites my senses, reminds my knowing,
Not easily held are treasures true,
Obstacles mount with search in lieu.

My intuition that lead me here
Detects not even an ounce of fear.
My curious nature now in command,
Right in sync with my heart's demand.

Inside my being there's building suspense,
Desire swelling, growing more intense.
As now the fragrance of the luring rose,
Perfumes the air, captures my nose.

Groping blindly through the dark,
While prickly thorns leave their mark.
The chilling cold, icicle forms,
Frozen remnants of painful storms.

The terrain is rough, ever daunting,
But abortive thoughts aren't haunting,
My curious nature, my intuitive heart,
Pushes me onward away from the start.

Until at last I'm bramble free,
A blessed warmth spreads over me.
The ice once thick is now all unfroze,
And I'm in the presence of a gorgeous rose!

As I stand in awe at this sight profound,
I know I'm standing on precious ground,
For the gorgeous rose glowing before my eyes,
Grows from the heart of the soul it beautifies.

I longed to touch but I refrained,
Such beauty before me mustn't be waned.
Should I touch, would it disappear?
Just the thought brought me fear.

My being possessed with adulation,
My heart touched, full transformation,
For suddenly I felt consumed by love
And all its magic, made hence, thereof.

All pain forgotten through my pursuit,
As I savour this delicious fruit.
For there is no greater than love to reap
And nothing more worthy than love to keep.

My way I made among the thorns,
I found the heart the rose adorns;
A journey again I'd gladly take,
Because and for the precious sake...
Of Love.

And now...
Through all the pain and all the grief,
I still can find such great relief,
For inside I see yet a gorgeous rose,
Still so beautiful and still it glows.
And yes, I feel and know it's true,
The beauty that beats inside of you!

Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-02-04 09:07:00 (EST)

Inspirational credit: The Monster :'(
136102  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2014-02-17
Written: (3884 days ago)

#Poetry #Stalking #Cyberstalking 

"Monster"


Everywhere I go a monster tags along,
No matter what I do, everything is wrong. :'(
It seems he has attached himself to my life, to me,
No matter what I do I can't of him shake free.

I do not wish to slay the monster,
He just needs to get a life,
One that doesn't cause me
All this stress and strife.

Many friends fear the monster
And so their distance keep,
But I cannot blame them
For fear of what they'll reap,
If they stand too close,
Or stand in my defense
Because he is a jealous monster
Wrath he will dispense.

So this battle I must fight
Mostly by myself, alone,
Praying for the strength
I'll need to be my very own,
Until the day will come when,
At last I will be free
Of the monster who delights in
And lives to torment me.


Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-02-16 21:30:00

Inspirational credit: The Monster :'(

136101  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2014-02-16
Written: (3885 days ago)

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136100  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2014-02-15
Written: (3885 days ago)

"When we face a problem, we can find and choose a solution. When we turn our backs on a problem, the solution will choose to find us and usually NOT to our liking." ~ Artsieladie #Quotes

136099  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2014-02-15
Written: (3885 days ago)

"Molting Of A Different Nature"


It is said, "Birds of a feather flock together".
Well, the birds are indeed flocking 'of a feather'!
Not to 'preen their feathers', but to 'preen their lies'
To try and keep them all straight and organised.
However, no matter how well they primp and preen,
A severe onset of "molting" is already on the scene.
The culprit causing this huge concern?
Why, it's the TRUTH which soon they'll learn!


Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-02-15 15:33:00 (EST)

136097  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2014-02-15
Written: (3886 days ago)
Next in thread: 136105

http://www.tickld.com/x/i-cant-believe-they-are-doing-this-its-disgusting

Being a person who is also having my work stolen, I certainly empathize with Albert Ransom. Granted it's not the same type of work, an app versus art, but the theft of someone else's work is still THEFT. Then should you dare and expose the thief, well you're the bad guy. People who help themselves and benefit from the work, effort, and time of others are nothing short of being downright despicable. Then add in the fact that they're doing this because of their immoral acts against the owner of the artwork, well this makes their already disgusting behaviour even more disgusting AND despicable! :/

..And gee, how dare Albert Ransom speak out against the injustice too, right? THIS is what many people think because I am speaking out against what's being done to me.

136096  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2014-02-15
Written: (3886 days ago)

"When you are dealt lemons, make lemonade! Sour lies can only be sweetened by the truth." ~ Quotes-By-Artsieladie

136095  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2014-02-14
Written: (3886 days ago)

Who's the real liar? The truth doesn't lie! :)

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..And the screengrab of the "hidden" wiki-page that implicates the person who hid it with the tampering of my phone...
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...if the person who hid it isn't guilty, why did he "hide" it?
The "hidden link": http://elftown.eu/wiki.html?name=Calls_To_Myself

..And some more truth... complete with my 'phone bill', my desktop incident "for Linkoping, Ostergotland. Sweden", someone stating needing "diplomatic immunity" to go to US ..and more!

Handed-Me-Lemons_Hence-Making-Lemonade


Don't impose your own negatives onto me, accuse me of lying and making up shit, so you can continue to get away with your immoral acts, and then use all this aforementioned to justify
slandering me all over the Internet AND stealing MY work! It is unacceptable! I am NOT a bystander nor an enabler. Just because others don't have the guts to speak up for what's right,
it does not mean that "I" will follow suit. ..And don't bother trying to shift more blame onto me either, for telling the truth with data to back it up. You've been given umpteen chances to
avert this, but you'd rather be arrogant, stubborn, belligerent, and nasty. Guilt does have a way of making one act this way. I still believe you're better than this, but apparently you don't.
It's easier I guess to act like a bastard than it is to do what's right. This speaks volumes about you all by itself.

..And in regards to those "Calls To Myself"? I also have data that shows how comments on wiki-pages by the former vice mayor "correlated directly with" some of the "Calls To Myself" inci-
dents. Interesting to say the least but I'm to believe that they are 'just coincidences' too. Sorry to disappoint, but "I" am not stupid.

I guess the saying, "Birds of a feather flock together" is true! This way they can "preen" each other's lies.. until of course, along comes the truth to cause severe molting! LOL

The real pathetic fact in all this is that I've been willing to talk with the person at the root of this to work things out that would be 'mutually beneficial' for us both so that all this truth tell-
ing would no longer be necessary. But... I guess he's wanting to be and enjoying keeping this all going on. Oh, but yet, I'm the one being called the 'drama queen'. If I was such as I'm
being labeled, "I" wouldn't be the one willing to negotiate, now would I? Just because I won't allow a certain person to have his cake and eat it too AT MY EXPENSE, it doesn't mean that
I'm the bad one here. The one and those who are helping him cover up the truth ARE. I have provided more than ample evidence that proves I am not lying or making up stuff but the
problem is, not a damn one involved wants to admit it. No guts!

If I'm the one who is providing the data that supports what I'm saying is true and the one(s) accusing just 'claim' I'm making things up, then WHO should be the one(s) in question? When
I prove that I'm not the one who is lying but still no one involved is willing to acknowledge the truth, who exactly should be held accountable? If what I'm providing is so incorrect, then
why doesn't the one at the root of this provide something tangible to counter what I'm providing? Just ignoring a situation does and proves absolutely nothing.

..And may I remind HIM, freshen HIS memory that I went to HIM "first" to keep this and resolve this issue just between HIM and I but it was HE who chose to ignore the situation and then
continue to play HIS games. So it's 'my' fault because it escalated? It's about time that the actual blame be placed on the one(s) where it rightfully belongs instead of making me the
scapegoat for another's wrongdoing.

It is HIS choice HE'S making to avoid me. It's common knowledge that a person who deliberately avoids another when there's a situation that needs resolving, they do so because they
are harbouring a guilty conscience. If I have no problem with discussing this to try and find a solution 'mutually beneficial' AND without animosity, then WHO is the one with the problem?
..And why? It's not like I am seeking to punish him or anyone else. I just want the truth. ..And only those who deal with and work with lies have a problem with the truth. It IS the truth
after all that will set everyone involved free because there would be no more lies to hide or cover up and this frees everyone from the burden of trying to keep their lies straight. If "I"
was the one lying, then it would be "I" who would be afraid of the truth. Do "I" look like "I" am afraid of the truth?

Anyone reading this: If you had overwhelming data and evidence that points to one person invading your privacy through your communication devices, can you honestly say that you
would say or do absolutely nothing? You would be perfectly okay with a person having access to ALL your PRIVATE communication? ..And then also, for seven plus years? ..And then you
would also be okay with such a person then "sharing" the information they collected through the privacy invasion with a person or persons who have it in for you? ..Invading your privacy
and then handing it all over to your enemy? You'd be fine with this too? Now add in, if you decided to try and get it stopped, you were then labeled as a liar, drama queen, troublemaker,
paranoid lunatic, etc., and then also threatened and told to shut your mouth about what you have and know or else, you'd be okay with this too? Then add in having your name slan-
dered all over the Internet AND having your own work taken from you besides because of your trying to get it stopped, you'd be okay with this too? You and I both know what your an-
swer would be. Yet this all is exactly what I'm expected to swallow and do nothing about.

This would be more than enough to make one's blood boil. But now add in the fact that the person doing all this to you is still also reaping benefits "from your name". ..And add in the
fact that you contributed a ton of work, time, and effort to/for HIS benefit, as well as a considerable amount of money. You would still be okay with being subjected to all this that I am?
Only a complete idiot, a fool, would do nothing. I am neither of these. In fact I am resented for the sheer fact that I'm smart enough to collect and log data and information. I was told
this on Elftown by staff and former staff members that only a crazy person would collect data. Really? Perhaps then they should run this concept by those involved with investigation, be-
cause those in law enforcement will tell you and have told me to save, log, and document when something, anything, seems suspicious. I suppose the Elftown staff know more than the
authorities and are the experts? I'm also smart enough to know that when people start acting belligerently defensive when you are onto them, you know you are on the RIGHT path to
the truth. ..And if what I have and know is so bloody wrong, then why would a person threaten me for saying and showing it? Hide the data I've provided?

..And I wouldn't HAVE TO show and tell anything IF the person at the root of this would just grow up and communicate with me. It's because he won't that I am left with no other choice
but to prove that it is not I who is lying or covering up anything. Don't accuse me falsely and then expect me not to retaliate. Don't blame me because I am defending myself and this
defending requires the exposing of your lies you're telling to save your neck. ..And don't blame me because you don't have the guts to face me and deal with this privately between us.


136094  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2014-02-14
Written: (3886 days ago)

I love it when some people aren't even aware they're being setup and then they reveal inadvertently their little head games they're trying to play. I suppose a little entertainment for some laughs around here is in order considering this place is so totally ..ummm... dead. *chuckling*

136092  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2014-02-14
Written: (3887 days ago)

Happy Valentine's Day!

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136091  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2014-02-13
Written: (3888 days ago)

The traveling of folks and where they go is so interesting. :)

136090  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2014-02-13
Written: (3888 days ago)

Wow! I've never seen the number of online members SO low! The average number of members online is less than 20!? O.O I guess the site is dead ..or so damn close to it, it might as well be.
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http://elftown.eu/onlinemembers.html

I guess various members telling me how dead it is aren't kidding!
136089  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2014-02-12
Written: (3889 days ago)

Here's a message from a member here who btw had NEVER "supposedly" spoken to me before, NEVER had ANY communication with period prior to this, 'his' writing to me, addressing me, for the very FIRST time. To say the least, this shows the level of mentality and maturity of this person, but as well the OBVIOUS factor present that he can't even stand himself. Such blatant animosity and belligerence when since he "supposedly" hadn't ever spoken to me before. It certainly was not called for or warranted, unless he's playing imposter and is carrying a grudge of the one being impostered.

As I've stated, I NEVER had ANY communication with this person prior to him sending me this message. Pure arrogant animosity at its finest:

"Really? You believe in God? Yet you live in a secular system... how the hell are you going to justify that once you die? I think God will have you dragged to hell for not supporting his Papacy on Earth & not forking over all your money to the Vatican City Catholic authority-- which is, up till today the ONLY Christian nation left on Earth.
You support a political cause that kills innocent men, women & children & an economy run by Israel & Jews... yet somehow, you find it allowable to justify yourself? Why you don't cower in shame defeats me. Especially seeing as that the United States has sunk & is now on its' way to becoming a Chinese puppet. I hope you do carry a second passport, or you will be dying for your ego in the most insufferable way haha.
In any case, I don't expect you to answer... you CAN'T actually discuss philosophy or morals (because yours are derived from your ego alone).

Funny how you put so much effort into trying to copyright your works, which are actually made up of pieces that are NOT in the public domain. Images you copy & paste from google are NOT all public domain except where directly specified so, & using them invalidates all that hard work you put into writing the nonsense of your copyright notice... which wouldn't stand up in court.

So do us both a favor & delete this message."


This message has a VERY clear undertone. What's really uncanny however, is how much this message sounds like how Hedda likes to talk to me, if and when he does. There's another very interesting coincidence to mention... this member left Elfpack and hasn't been seen since... SINCE I had a discussion "on my phone and ONLY on my phone" about the "red flags" pointing to him. Once I told someone on MY phone about my suspicions, the red flags, he hasn't been on Elfpack since! Seems a bit too 'coincidental' to me.

136088  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2014-02-12
Written: (3889 days ago)

#Art #ValentinesDay #Cupid #ArtsieladieArt
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"Heartland Cupids"

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!

If a Cupid hasn't hit his mark yet, watch out, he just might soon! 'Tis the season for Love. I wish all Love, Light, Peace, and Joy. ♥

By Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2014-02-14 All rights reserved.

Inspired by Love.

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