well i found out some good news today

JP( guy i've had a crush on since i moved here) finally broke up w/ Melanie.
well i dont know her.... so i can be happy. Im sure shes a nice girl and all besides shes really pretty even w/o makeup.....
but jp is a complete hottie!..... ug i drooled in spanish 3 last year and i felt so weak when ever he said hi..... he even said hi to me when i was working

what more could u want that a hottie, athletic, kinda and gental to everyone
and FREE.
oh well im still not in his league, but i can always dream. and another thing

i have a bf....... i love him too.... and i think he's hott... but jp...woah
i dont think id dump my bf for him ...but i dont need to worry about it because this year i dont seem to exist to jp. any how Eric and i havent seen each other in over a week... he calls though... thats good
*sighs*

well, went to my friends bday party tonight
i love marshmellows
saw my xbf first time since we broke up
that wasnt fun but it was better than i expected..... maybe

i hate guys...
i hate the way they cant make up their minds and flip flop
i hate it when they decide they like me but not my friends or the way i dress
i hate it when i have a bf   and all of a sudden  we cant be friends

i hate the way i love my bf   but i cant trust him
i hate the way my aunt says i dont know anythign about love
she wouldnt know would she, shes not me.... and maybe i dont know anything but i'm feeling somethign i know she wouldnt know what to call, i find his controversy attractive and opinions(even if i dont agree w/ them)