I can not stand my dad
i get up to get my cheeseburger
and thats for like 2seconds!
and he's getting on this computer

ok we have 2 ...... the other one has nooo chat stuff on it
he could .....no SHOULD have gotten on the other one.

He didnt even ask if he could use this one.....
he's not a fuckin king   hes not a dictator.... I refuse to live like some pitiful shit and let him walk on me like water...
he's not god.   he's only human. AND HE CAN DAMN WELL ASK TO USE THIS COMPUTER WHICH HE CAN SEE HAS MY SHIT ON IT. there was ANOTHER computer that didnt. and he says  just a second......10 minutes later......hold on... 5 minutes..... I have to start bitching( im not going ot get off *like a little kid* he says)

and another thing MY MOM CAUSES EVER SHIT THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED IN MY LIFE. she doesnt think i can make decisions for myself....not even what to wear.

well i found out some good news today

JP( guy i've had a crush on since i moved here) finally broke up w/ Melanie.
well i dont know her.... so i can be happy. Im sure shes a nice girl and all besides shes really pretty even w/o makeup.....
but jp is a complete hottie!..... ug i drooled in spanish 3 last year and i felt so weak when ever he said hi..... he even said hi to me when i was working

what more could u want that a hottie, athletic, kinda and gental to everyone
and FREE.
oh well im still not in his league, but i can always dream. and another thing

i have a bf....... i love him too.... and i think he's hott... but jp...woah
i dont think id dump my bf for him ...but i dont need to worry about it because this year i dont seem to exist to jp. any how Eric and i havent seen each other in over a week... he calls though... thats good
*sighs*

well, went to my friends bday party tonight
i love marshmellows
saw my xbf first time since we broke up
that wasnt fun but it was better than i expected..... maybe

i hate guys...
i hate the way they cant make up their minds and flip flop
i hate it when they decide they like me but not my friends or the way i dress
i hate it when i have a bf   and all of a sudden  we cant be friends

i hate the way i love my bf   but i cant trust him
i hate the way my aunt says i dont know anythign about love
she wouldnt know would she, shes not me.... and maybe i dont know anything but i'm feeling somethign i know she wouldnt know what to call, i find his controversy attractive and opinions(even if i dont agree w/ them)