[umm am so so sick and at the same time sad , i found out that u cant trust no one and i mean no one , everyone is a back staber . the people that i though were my friends all they do is talk shit about me , and all i have done is to be nice and treat them right and help them out even buying them shit . is just funny that when to of ur friends stop talking how u find out things that will hurt u .eva dammm i never though that she will talk behind mu back and act like nothing is going on , all i have to say to her is that yea i am a dog with clothes and i am like my father is thats wat she thinks .so far the only one that i think that hassent spoke behing my back is ana and her sister ,i really hope that they havent spoke behing my back cause i will really be surprised . umm zazha i found her talking about me with lenett , she was talking about me for something that dosent even have to do with her is not even her bussiness. damm i wish that i will move so far away and there will be no one to hurt me .oh god i wish that i had my old best friends that i use to talk too , they were my bitches and my homies i still love them but am sure they r mad at me . i wish there were things that i did that i can change but that can happend unless i can turn time back . ummm i just wish that my future will get brigther and not darker . ]
i woke up so sick today, i didnt go to school,i cant wait for satrday after i come from school, am going to dyed my hair yey 4 me. ey tom is friday but am sick, i am going to do my hair for tom
umm i know that zazha is mad at me cause she found out that ray likes me and not her . well if he does like me thats his problem cause i dont like him , but zazha likes him and he dosent like her . life is so complicated and confusing lol
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yey i fixed my page it looks so cute , damm its 1:40 am and am still awake and i have to wake up early 4 school lol
<d>umm i have a big fucking headche and there is nothing to do , i will do my ahir later so i cant look cute for school , i want to kill someone </d>
um today is my lil sis b-day she is 6 yey happy birthday baby gurl , i love you . today school was crazy and i had alot of homework
well its 11:34 pm here , i went to school and i had fun and i hate my second period teacher she gets on my nerves . i got another school id ,i saw some of my others friends that i didnt see the first day of school and they havent been to school , everyone look ok and good , and i cant wait for my b-day to get here, i want it to so bad
~ well its officially sept 14 cause is 12:09am and today is my bitch b-day , i lov u evey , wow i cant believe she is 17 today, yey happy birthday too u , happy birthday to u , happy birthday dear evey happy birthday to u .~
i guess i had fun , i have a cut in my foot n it boders ,am tired a sleepy it's 11:44pm , i woke up a few minutes ago but have to go back to bed cause i have to wake up early forschool
umm its 12:38 am , i have to wake up at 7 or 8 am to get readu for school .i hate school just cause i have to wake up early .but am sure i will have fun at school today with my bitches . i cant wait to start being bad and mean
damm today is sept 11 i remmeber this day like it was yesterday , i was in the 8th grade it was a very sad day my thoughts goes to those who lost their families and friends , may god b with yah . this is a very sad day it really is , but in the other hand yey i got my hair done and its very pretty
BEHIND THESE HAZEL EYES
by Kelly Clarkson
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
i really like this song cause it talk about how i feel and i just hope that some day my heart will be fixed
umm am going to my grandmad house i got a new friends and am happy cause i gave her advice [Lips Of Deceit]. am gonna wear my dont judje me based on ur ignorance tee yey
yey i didnt go to school today and i woke up at 3:30 pm damm and a sleepy head . junior i miss u alot , yo life is a bitch a big bitch ,
I WENT TO SCHOOL TODAY AND I GUESS IT WAS OK . AM SO BORED AND I HAVE A HEADCHE . AM NOT GOING TO SCHOOL TOM YEY
YEY I BOUGHT MY BLACK TIMS AND I RECEIVED MY TWO BIG ORDERS FROM WWW.HOTTOPIC.C
i got my chemical romance messanger bag and am so happy .yey am going back to school on thursday and am kinda happy cause am going back but at the same time am not . oh i bought my mickey mouse cellphone cover .am gonna go but my black tims tomorrow , i watched the real world (mtv) that show is hot
i had fun at my cuzz house last night we played alot of games and listen to music . i went to down town with my cuzz and i bought victoria secret (pink) perfume .
today is my brothers b-day , my cuzz got sick and i had to take her to the hospital . wat a fucking day . but i ended up having fun i sleeped at my cuzz house .
today is my uncles b-day and this shit is crazy and boring