i have the biggest crush on this guy jack evn though he used me.:( i dnt know what 2 do. this is like whn i was w/matt. he used me and abused me and treated me like a door matt and i stayed w/him through it all! the BIG problem i stll love him and i dnt want 2!!!!!!!!! i dnt wanna hurt ne more! im tired of guys walking all ovr me! i dnt know what 2 do about jack b/c he gts what he wants then acts like i dnt exist until he wants something else frm me and i love his attention so much i go w/it! how pathetic am i?

i dont know what 2 do my world is falling down around me and i cant controll any thing. i dont know how much longer i can go on! i need some1 2 pull me back but evry1 has abandoned me!!!