damn all guys, except my boyfriend. brett was the first guy i fell in love with, way back in 9th grade. we lost touch a little over a year ago. well, i finally found him, and for some reason he doesnt want to talk to me. im pretty sure i know why, and its a very stupid reason. i will always love him. i wasnt trying to find him so we could be together again. i just wanted to make sure he was ok and everything. it kinda hurts that he wont talk to me, but its ok. i have a wonderful guy and im happy with him, although he doesnt know just how much i like him. but oh well,life goes on. its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. it still hurts, but its something i can live with. maybe we can at least be friends again someday. who knows. i wil be ok either way. ive learned that you just have to deal with things that you have no power to change. you have to just keep moving on with your life no matter what, and to always rememeber to smile, because you never know who is looking.