[Faith.Hope.Love]'s diary
My messed with house (note: the colour Psuedo HTML doesn't work in diaries) Please notice the text area between my "United In Dreams" artwork and my Galadriel's Castle Grande artwork:
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<dpurple>ALL creative works seen in my house: art, graphics, written (including poetry and quotes), are owned by and copyrighted to
yours truly, the creator, [Faith.Hope.Love], aka Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly, unless otherwise specified. All rights reserved!</dpurple>
As soon as a creative work is created, the work "BELONGS TO ITS CREATOR".
<blue>Please Note:</blue>Any stray or additional texts and/or links after the [#] at the bottom of my house, are being added somehow and/or by someone "other than myself", and I'm documenting and saving it happening as it occurs. |
<blue>"The closer one gets to the truth, the more uncomfortable and defensive liars become." ~ Quotes-By-Artsieladie</blue>
https://lh3.go
My name is Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly. I like meeting new friends and reminiscing and chatting with those who are already friends. If you want to know about me generally as a person, please read my extended bio a little farther down, but there is one key thought to keep in mind in regards to me, and this is: I will seek it and I will speak it."</blue> ...If one tells lies about me, then one can expect me to tell the truth about them! Truth trumps lies! |
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<blue>Greetings, everyone!</blue>
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Thank you!
<blue>I love to write quotes and have written many. Here are some I have written:</blue>
 ~ "A friend who supports you in private, but denies you before others, is NOT a friend." ~ "Our own growth in strength and value of character is perpetuated by the enrichment of those we surround ourselves with." ~ "When it comes to kindness, caring, hope, and love, there is no distance between... hearts and souls connected." ~ "We live in a society where justification is widely accepted, while accountability is widely rejected." ~ "Knowledge is power, but only when it is applied does it become ‘power-full’." ~ "Dreams can hold the key to the true desire of one's heart." ~ "The simplest gestures borne of the heart, reap the greatest rewards." ~ “Jealousy, a wasted energy, when used, validates the insecurity and immaturity... of its user.” |
"Little Red Riding Hood - Wolf"
Digital art by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-03-30 All rights reserved.
http://i1.minu
<blue>Just finished this piece just a little while ago... hot out of my studio! lol</blue> It's now: 2013-03-30 19:28:21 (Elfpack time)
"Just taking a midday stroll, Decked out in my crimson hood, With yummies in my basket That do taste mighty goooood! Come hither, come hither! To sniff each tasty treat And I shall too enjoy, As YOU I will eat!" |
"Handle With Care"
Digital art by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-02-14 All rights reserved.
https://lh5.go
 | This digital piece is my Valentine Art for this year of 2013. A romantic setting... My Cupids and arrows flying with some arrows hitting their marks, the hearts, but a couple landing in the whipped cream and a strawberry in the bowl of chocolate. ..And what's a romantic setting without roses? The bouquet has eleven and the one rose laying in the foreground is the one that completes the dozen. ..And then two glasses of wine. The hearts are gift boxed, displayed in 'opened' gift boxes, glowing and the Cupids' arrows have hit their marks. The ribbons the gift boxes were bound with are relaxed and lain out, criss crossing each other under the twelfth rose of the bouquet. It is with these hearts from which the title was derived, "Handle With Care". The red lace tablecloth and doilies are made from my scrollie patterns I designed and my gold metallic effect is present in the fancy scrollies seen just inside the inner frame and the candle holder are of this effect as well. This piece took me almost a month to design and put together, culminating into the finished work. |  |
<blue>My extended bio of philosophies, beliefs, etc. on which my values are centered around, because...</blue>
“<white>A person without values and principles for which they stand by, is a person without merit.</white>”
Quote by [Faith.Hope.Love], aka Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©| My hero is my Mom. I worship God, am a proud mom of a beautiful daughter and person, who is a United States Army Servicewoman, am a romantic at heart, am a passionate person and believe any- thing worth doing is worth giving it your best or don't bother at all, and just because something seems unlikely or improbable, it doesn't necessarily mean it is impossible. ...And my weapon of choice is the “truth”. I will seek it and I will speak it. I believe: in trust and respect, but these must be earned and then not abused or taken for granted; one's “true” value is not what's in their wallet, but what's in their heart, like the cultivating of values such as compassion, understanding, forgiveness, good ethics and morals, and not only having principles, but standing by them as well, to name some; “true” success can be and is only achieved when others haven't been used, walked on, and dumped along the pathway to and including upon its fruition; everyone is a “work in progress” and so, mistakes are eminent, but we learn by them and only when we are willing to acknowledge them and then are accountable for them; the representing of oneself should not be through one's physical self, but through one's character, integrity, values, heart, and mind; and in equality for all, rights and freedoms are privileges granted and must be respected, protected, and stood up for, both for ourselves and others. These are the “real” traits about a per- son that impress me as well, along with intelligence, humility, modesty, common sense, and uniqueness of self. I loathe jealousy, greed, double standards, brown nosing, butt kissing, “fence sitters” (spineless are those who lack the ability to take a stand and stick to it, but rather are ready and willing to alter their stance in accordance to and for their own self benefit without regard to whether it's right or wrong, “flip-floppers will do something, but don't follow through; those who don't “keep their word” period), self gain at the expense of others, the “all about me” attitude, braggarts, non-accountabi another or others), bullying, lying (particularly for, but not limited to, the purpose of covering up one's own transgressions and lack of integrity, morals, etc.), hypocrisy, stealing from others (including their work, their “earned” credit and credibility), the expecting of respect, trust, and positive recognition without “earning” such, the infringing on the rights of others, the “crying of foul” against another when the one crying is the one guilty of the foul, the “silent” who see and know of a wrongdoing against another or others but choose to turn the other cheek and do nothing to defend a victim or vic- tims, and the using of others for self gain and then dismissing them with malice afterwards especially. Basically, I am a fair-minded, friendly, outgoing person, easy to communicate and negotiate with, unless: one is trying to pull something over on me, expecting of me what they wouldn't do or tolerate themselves, and/or infringing upon or violating my rights and freedoms. I try to always better myself rather than try to be someone else whom I am not nor can I even be. I make mistakes and have made many along my journey of life, learning mostly the hard way from them. I'm sure I have many yet to make and learn from, but I try not to repeat past ones. My experiences in life are diversified, negative and positive, some traumatic, some ecstatic, but all are blessings, contributing to whom I am today and instilling a desire within me to always try to better my self worth. I am not a “blind” follower. Instead of simply taking the “easy and most traveled” road, I prefer to forge my own path, even if it is the more difficult one and makes me unpopular, deter- mined by my own life's experiences, good, bad, or in between, and knowledge gained from them, as well as from others' lessons and experiences whenever possible and I believe in sharing knowledge gained with others so all may benefit. I'm not hesitant... to “think outside the box”, to push the limits to the max as long as I do not bring harm to others and I stay within the law, to stand up for what's right, even if or perhaps especially if I'm viewed unfavourably by doing so. I try to expect the maximum of myself, while the minimum of others, thus inducing less disappointment of/in myself and by/from others. I try not to sweat the small stuff, but violate me, my core rights, and my integrity I have “earned”, and one will be met with a force to be reckoned with most definitely. It's not about revenge or even close, but about the rightful defending and protection of oneself, one's self esteem, respect, and “earned” integrity and no one else has the right to strip me or another of any of these. One can also expect the same should they do likewise against those who are dear to my heart. I believe there is good and evil in everyone, but the choice of that which we aspire for, lies within ourselves, for we are all also given “free will”, the choice to pursue, be, and exhibit one or the other. Karma is retaliatory. Good begets good and evil begets evil; love and all it encompasses begets the same and hatred begets hatred. I also believe that anyone can change their course of direction, if they harbour the will, the desire within themselves to do so, for themselves first and foremost, because one must be able to respect and care about thyself before one can do likewise with/towards others, and so, I believe that people do deserve second chances to rectify mistakes, bad choices, and decisions made and thus the chance to change their course of life into a more positive and better direction. Ultimately, we all have pluses and minuses, weaknesses and strengths. If we each concentrate on learning ourselves, so we may recognise and hence know the difference, we can then accept we are not perfect, but rather, we are each a “work in progress” and learn how to sustain our strengths and minimise our weaknesses. |
<blue>I love to write poetry and have written many. Here are some I have written:</blue>
| "Beware Of The Wolf" Beware Of The Wolf who walks among the sheep, For it is only after, hearts to break and reap! It is cloaked in wool like all of the rest, But it is deceit for which it's known, the best! But.. when the wolf you spot, do NOT let IT know, Until all the sheep are made aware, and so, The wolf can be disbanded, driven from the flock, Without any recourse and cast out is a lock! ~ Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-03-11 11:11:00 | "Out, Let Your Tears" When we hold the hurt within and no escape, deliver, The tears will drown our light, as they become a massive river. The river then becomes a tumultuous, angry sea, And its waves consume our inner serenity. Tears from pain and loss are a fact of life, a given, But if we save and store them, they'll keep us from the livin'. Living life is not about just the pouring rain, For along with losses, there's also much to gain. When we fill our hearts with accumulated tears, We shut out all the light and feed ourselves with fears. A river with no outlet will drown the seeds we sow. But sun allowed to shine will make our gardens grow. ~ Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-03-07 16:44:00 |
| "In-sight-ful" Life's too short to on negatives dwell, So grasp the pluses, then share and tell. Spread light and love near and far, Illuminate your own, make like a star! So others may see, others may rise, Out of darkness, perhaps in disguise. Before words leave thy tongue, Review carefully before they're flung. Kindness and caring reap more of the same, While contempt just adds burden to blame. Within one's heart lies the truest eyes, Use these to see, be more wise. Be a reflection, a beacon of light, Shine from within, ever so bright! ~ Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-02-25 01:25:00 "Enshrouded Love" Sometimes.. what we feel The deepest and strongest within us, conceal, We never allow it to escape our lip, Instead we give in so fear can grip And hold it, securely chained inside, While we show nothing on the outer side. We deny, we shush, we cover, enshroud, And never ever speak it out loud. Though meanwhile, inside we writhe in pain, The infected dagger programmed to slain, Something so beautiful, so immense, Killing us slowly as it burns, intense. ~ Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-02-14 21:05-00 | "The ONLY Fish For Me" It is true what people say... There's many fish in the sea. But even so, of ALL the fish... You are the ONLY fish for me! Our seas may get rough, With waves that toss us about, But still, there's just ONE fish That I simply can't be without! Though there are other fish Who flash their colours bright, Your colours are my rainbow, With hues that are just right! Other fish seem flawless With no blemish or no mark, But with all their perfectness, They still can't ignite a spark! For the glowing of my candle, Its aura and its reason, Is fueled by your love, Through each and every season! So maybe there are other fish, Tempting me to try, But no matter what they offer, They do not hold the why... Why you are 'my'... King of the Sea, Why you are thee... ONLY fish for me! ♥ ~ Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-02-20 00:08:00 |
<blue>"Patronizing, placating, circumventing... are all 'stonewall' tactics applied and used to cover up the truth." ~ Quotes-By-Artsieladie</blue>
"One's Inner Strength and Value Is One's Inner and True Beauty"
Digital art, photo editing, design, and writing by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013 All rights reserved.
https://lh3.go
<blue>Inner beauty, strength, and value is not "gender specific".
Both a man and a woman can "choose" to be, have, and project these.</blue>
There is an inner beauty, strength and value about a person:
| Who believes in, accepts, likes, and respects themselves, which enables them to do and be likewise with others. Who knows themselves, acknowledging both their pluses and their minuses. Who chooses empathy over apathy in regards to others. Who knows they are capable of anything they put their mind to. Who forges and follows their own path, rather than blindly following along behind others. Who is not thrown off by obstacles along the way, including by others who are determined to deter them. Who's reasoning and intelligence comes from experience and lessons learned therefrom. Who knows they can fall, can fail, but can and do pick themselves back up again and move forward as an 'improved'... "work in progress". Who, knowing they themselves can and do make mistakes from which they themselves learn from, accept that others must also be afforded the same courtesy. Who takes a stand and then stands by it, especially when tested. Who realises their own inner beauty, strengths, and values, can and will intimidate others who only wish for the same to be present within themselves. Who’s confidence is the result of... all of the aforementioned |
| So often, as I wander around on social sites, across the Internet, I see many shares about the beauty and so forth of women. Don't get me wrong, however, I'm not criticising this. But.. there are also many good and yes, beautiful men, not just or mainly women. ..And so, in all fairness, I would like to see more credit given to good men as well. The true beauty of a "person" is their inner beauty, in their strengths and in their values. <red>♥</red> |
Photo background from: http://www.pub
Link to photo (background) - Photographer is Unknown:
http://www.pub
"So proud of my daughter: [bluefaerie]!!!"
Digital art honouring my daughter, by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2011-02-10 All rights reserved.
http://i2.minu
<blue>Some more quotes I have written:</blue>
| ~ "Strong and confident people, inadvertently intimidate weak and insecure people." ~ "When we follow our passions, we discover our gifts." ~ "Fear failure and you deny success." ~ "One's eyes can be attracted to another, but only another's heart can impress!" ~ "Values and principles must be followed through on BEFORE one can "validate" them within themselves!" ~ "Words are the spectrum of colours, a writer paints with." ~ "Emulation is flattery at its finest." ~ "When justification is sought for an action, its morality becomes questionable." |
"United In Dreams"
Digital art with poem, both by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2011-12-11, explicitly inspired by, the person's name shall remain unmentioned. All rights reserved.
http://i5.minu
Though there are other fish Who flash their colours bright, Your colours are my rainbow, With hues that are just right! Other fish seem flawless With no blemish or no mark, But with all their perfectness, They still cannited In Dreams"</blue> United In Dreams, a connection unique; Forbidden reality, no words can speak. The light of day can never come dawning For two souls met in slumber, spawning, A magnetic energy but opposed with rage With jealousy and hatred presetting the stage. ...And so in dreams only, the two reunite, Embrace each other, make luminous the night. The stars in the heavens twinkle and shine, Endorsing their passion, profoundly divine. With the Magical Maiden along, close by his side Brightening the night with shimmers of pride, Thy great Pegasus on golden wings... Supremely soars, the King of Kings! Tame your anger, Shine your light; Set free your dreams, Your passions ignite! |
My Galadriël's "Castle Grande"
This digital work is actually several works within one.The trees, the "magik flowers of love", the gold metallic effect (fencing), Galadriël herself, the castle... all brought together in this piece.
By and copyrighted to Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly. ©2011 All rights reserved.
http://i1.minu
Galadriël's Castle/Sunset In Sweden: "Grande Sunset"
Digital art by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2011Fabulous foto by Henrik Hedda Wallin ©2010
http://i7.minu
| Photo (background) by Henrik Wallin! Original photo: http://elftown Located at: http://elftown Art/design/pho As can be seen, this is my "Galadriël's Castle Grande", a digital work, but at sunset in this piece. It is a "combo piece", a combination of Hedda's marvelous sunset photo and my art, designing, and editing. My castle here is a result of applying hue/saturation It was quite time consuming to get it just the way I wanted it to be. The trees at the forefront are my "love trees" I call them, because the leaves are heart shaped with added "flower hearts". Besides Hedda's fabulous foto for the background, everything else is made by yours truly, including the frame. |
Buttons designed by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-04-09 All rights reserved.
In regards to the Koala, only:
Photo reference: http://elftown
Photo by “pixish”: http://elftown
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"Galadriël"
Digital art by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2009-04-19 All rights reserved.
http://i2.minu
| Galadriël is one of the main characters in a story I've written entitled: "The Magic Of The Unicorn". This is only 'part' of a much larger artpiece of mine. <blue>"The Unicorn's Tears"</blue>Galadriël stands in the shadows, sad and helpless, without disguise, As she watches the kingdom gradually crumble before her eyes. The king she adores, tries desperately to regain back into a land The essence of life once abundant, exceedingly grand. The evil lurking, prevalent and rampant, destroying all good in its wake, Built around jealousy, control, and scorn, conniving to take. The good subjects are leaving, being driven away, The evil breeds hopelessness. They can no longer stay. She knows the hosts of evil vehemently do curse Her presence and loyalty, they consistently rehearse, Their plotting, their wicked schemes, to enable her fall, For she has the power, the magic, to expose them all. The mission, the goal, is to conquer, divide, From Aikanáro and Galadriël, the truth must hide. For should the king's eyes be opened to see, The unicorn's magic would set him free From emotional blackmail, torturing his soul, Returning to him his own control. The evil subjects, as sheep adorned, Spew their venom, so none are warned. Galadriël's heart so torn, badly bruised, But abandon her king, she still refused. Remain she must, strong, vigilant, and true, Her faith in her king will carry him through, The flames of destruction have spread across his land, Sparked and ignited by treacherous hand. Her tears run free and they shed galore, To extinguish the flames and rebuild once more A kingdom enriched, esquisitely defined, Magically wondrous, uniquely designed. Thousands of subjects now flock to its gate, Anxiously hoping, for admittance they wait. The evil subjects with angered rage, Turn on each other and so engage, Their own vile behavior conceived of self lust. They destroy each other as they scatter like dust. The king and the unicorn stand proud and tall, As they watch over the kingdom, but a tear doth fall, From the corner of the unicorn's eye of jade, Remembering the days, she spent shunned in the shade. Galadriël looks at her king, Aikanáro, gives him a smile of pride. She kisses his cheek that warms him inside. He no longer doubts his own self worth. They celebrate each other and the kingdom's rebirth. |
<blue>Some more quotes I have written:</blue>
| ~ “An idea held prisoner in the shadow of silence can never shine in the light of day.” ~ “Undermining the earned integrity of another... verifies the offender’s lack thereof.” ~ “The true worth of a person is measured by the size of their heart, not the size of their wallet.” ~ “Unspoken words of today can become regrets of tomorrow.” ~ “Suppression of evidence is admittance of guilt.” ~ “One can only be hurt as deep as they love and care.” ~ "Self perceived infallibility is the prerequisite of fallibility." ~ "When one's ego supersedes one's intelligence, erosion of one's intelligence results." |
"Elftown Crest/Seal"
Designed/creat
http://i1.minu
| One of the gazillion things I did for Elftown.com, one of the contests I created was the "Elftown Crest Contest". The idea of a seal or crest for the site culminated into both this piece I made as well as the contest itself. This piece represents all the awesomeness I saw in the site: community (circle of people representing completion, holding hands in unity); the two people near the bottom represent more people coming to join the community; featured interests: writing, roleplaying, art, photography, and poetry (each represented by a jeweled sword); the shield (representing fantasy and science fiction; with 'Elftown' on it with gold ivy leaves; and the swords all meet together 'under the shield'); all the ivy leaves add prestige; and the world behind (background) with the shining star representing Sweden, the country where Elftown's and site's owner call home, more specifically, Linkoping. |
"Elftown Shield"
Designed/creat
http://i4.minu
This work is the Elftown Shield I designed, which can be seen in the center of the "Elftown Crest/Seal" piece I also created.
<blue>Some more quotes I have written:</blue>
| ~ "Be careful who you trust, but beware of who you trust, "trusts"!" ~ ”Inflation of humility maintains deflation of ego.” ~ "Agreement is not paramount for understanding to take place.” ~ "Talk is cheap; actions require investment." ~ "Winners are willing to go the extra mile; losers take the short cuts." ~ "Truth sets us free; lies hold us prisoner.” ~ "Know your limitations to ‘delimit’ yourself." ~ "Winners accept and deal with the truth; losers accept and work with the lies." |
<blue>For more quotes I have written, drop by: Quotes-By-Artsieladie</blue>
"Peering Through The Pane"</blue>Through longing eyes she watches, The games, the fun, the laughter. Her heart longs to be a part Before, during, after. She winces as they point in her direction, For the giggling only grows, as they revel in rejection. A warm, wet tear rolls down her reddened cheek, But she smiles anyway for words she cannot speak. As she slowly turns away and fades into the shadows, Silently she wishes for nevermore tomorrows. But the dawning of new days arrive, Commencing daylights in rebirth, Peering through the pane still, She questions her self worth. Then one day, peering through the pane, Suddenly she hears, yes, indeed, her name. As the pounding in her chest increases, her vision becomes a blur. Her ears must be hearing things for they can't be meaning her. The crowd is persistent. They continue their request. They're even adding words like, "Come on! You are the best!" So, bravely she steps out from behind the pane. She offers all the best she has, never thinking of self gain. They gather 'round her with bubbly, eager chat. Laughing and convincing her, she is where it's at. Her heart is filled with gladness, perpetuated joy. For she can't believe, her acceptance, they employ. Now the task has been completed, drawn into a close. Where is everyone? Hadn't her they chose? With sadness and dismay, she stares in disbelief, Feeling so forsaken by each a clever thief. So, once again, she stands alone, on the outside looking in. A deepened, swelling sorrow forges the unforgiving sin. Discouraged and disheartened, more so than before, She knows her strength has dissipated, gone forevermore. Ne'er will she peer again through a cold, relentless pane. Her heart, her spirit, shattered hopelessly by unmitigated pain. |
Credits:
| Graphics/art/p © All rights reserved. About the usage and sharing of my creative works, please read: Public-Notice_By-ArtsieladieThis site: www.elfpack.co |
May God Bless You and Have a Great Day!
May the love of God always touch and live within your heart!
<i>By Artsieladie</i>All creativity on this page is copyrighted to Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly, aka [Faith.Hope.Love], unless otherwise specified. All rights reserved.
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| ~ “An idea ~ http://artsiel img250:https:/ ~ “Undermining the earned integrity of another... verifies the offender’s lack thereof.” ~ “The true worth of a person is measured by the size of their heart, not the size of their wallet.” ~ “Unspoken words of today can become regrets of tomorrow.” ~ “Suppression of evidence is admittance of guilt.” ~ “One can only be hurt as deep as they love and care.” ~ "Self perceived infallibility is the prerequisite of fallibility." ~ "When one's ego supersedes one's intelligence, erosion of one's intelligence results." |
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"Love Our Earth" - Happy Earth Day
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"The most damaging aspect of abuse is the trauma to our hearts and souls from being betrayed by the people that we love and trust."
Sooo true! It's one thing to be hurt by one who is an acquaintance or one who has little influence or impact on our lives. BUT... it's an entirely different and more devastating situation when we are hurt and betrayed by those we bring "into" our hearts, where we care deeply for them, and so trust and love them. ...And abuse has many faces!
..And so, once again, a quote of mine applies: "We can only be hurt as deeply as we love and care... and trust."
"Peering Through The Pane"Through longing eyes she watches, The games, the fun, the laughter. Her heart longs to be a part Before, during, after. She winces as they point in her direction, For the giggling only grows, as they revel in rejection. A warm, wet tear rolls down her reddened cheek, But she smiles anyway for words she cannot speak. As she slowly turns away and fades into the shadows, Silently she wishes for nevermore tomorrows. But the dawning of new days arrive, Commencing daylights in rebirth, Peering through the pane still, She questions her self worth. Then one day, peering through the pane, Suddenly she hears, yes, indeed, her name. As the pounding in her chest increases, her vision becomes a blur. Her ears must be hearing things for they can't be meaning her. The crowd is persistent. They continue their request. They're even adding words like, "Come on! You are the best!" So, bravely she steps out from behind the pane. She offers all the best she has, never thinking of self gain. They gather 'round her with bubbly, eager chat. Laughing and convincing her, she is where it's at. Her heart is filled with gladness, perpetuated joy. For she can't believe, her acceptance, they employ. Now the task has been completed, drawn into a close. Where is everyone? Hadn't her they chose? With sadness and dismay, she stares in disbelief, Feeling so forsaken by each a clever thief. So, once again, she stands alone, on the outside looking in. A deepened, swelling sorrow forges the unforgiving sin. Discouraged and disheartened, more so than before, She knows her strength has dissipated, gone forevermore. Ne'er will she peer again through a cold, relentless pane. Her heart, her spirit, shattered hopelessly by unmitigated pain. |
Written about Monday 2013-04-15
Written: (4193 days ago)
Is this right? There is no grey background showing both in the news' and other boxes on Mainstuff nor in the badge or description areas in my house. But the grey background is showing in my diaries. When I first started using the Dynamic Stylesheet, both the MS boxes and my house had grey backgrounds, but not now. Why is this? Anyone know why?
Thank you [Stephen] and [sammie h!]! I appreciate your complimentary comments very much on Redesigning Elfpack. :) Since this is a bit long for a comment on the wiki-page, I'm placing it here in my diary instead.
I love both being creative, including making computer graphics, and being helpful/useful
In spite of everything I have been put through and am still being put through, I am willing to work things out "with him" AND in such a way that would be mutually beneficial for us both and with as little damage to 'his' reputation as possible, regardless of what he's doing to mine, because I would just rather put the whole fiasco behind not only us, but everyone else involved that has been pulled into this mess, because Hedda refused to deal with things right from the get go, for I did go to him with my concerns FIRST. Please note that I say this 'publicly' and with purpose, the purpose being, so that I may be held to what I say. I am a person of my word.
If he is as innocent as he claims, then perhaps, he'd care to explain why he hid this wiki-page from public view: http://elftown
..And I'm NOT writing this to stir up trouble here. But people do need to KNOW the truth, not just one sided innuendo, designed to make me look like I'm the bad person and everyone else involved is blameless. The data I've collected and documented says otherwise. One can't have as much data as I have collected, saved, and logged, pointing to "one" person, for that "one" person to not be involved.
But... I do believe in second chances, even third or fourth or as many as it takes if a person is trying to get it right and especially if it's a person I have admired and held in high regard, because we all make mistakes, myself included, but it is through our mistakes we learn the most important lessons. However, in order to learn from them, we must first be accountable. ..And I'm not asking or expecting "public accountability
Because of other data I've collected and also provided to me by a few others, I believe there are also extenuating circumstances, which preempted the start of this, but then got out of hand. But if the person refuses to talk reasonably and civilly and with maturity, a situation cannot be resolved, and if it can't get resolved, then I am left with only one recourse and this is to defend myself, which I WILL do. This can be taken to the bank!
Am I aware that defending myself will be detrimental to Hedda's sites, his endeavors? I am. ..And I am truly sorry about this, because no one loved his sites more than I, which I have proved profoundly so, through the MEGA work, time, and devotion I've given to his sites, not to mention I've donated over $1000.00 as well. If I didn't believe in and have faith in the value of his sites, I wouldn't have bothered. Along with this devotion and faith, I also developed one and the same for Hedda, himself. So in the beginning when I first began with my suspicions about things that were happening that were strange and seemingly unexplainable, the LAST person I wanted to suspect was Hedda. ..And so, I made countless excuses for him and I even opted to use my "secret diary" to communicate with him, because I KNEW that he was reading my 'secret diary entries'. He does so from the database. He does NOT have to be seen visibly as 'active', but be sure, he can be present nonetheless.
I have been accused of being consumed with hatred. THIS couldn't BE farther from the truth. I do NOT hate Hedda or anyone! I hate what has and is being done to me, but I do NOT hate those involved, but ESPECIALLY Hedda. I just want this all to stop! I would like to be able to restore my faith in him and his sites, but I will NOT accept blame for anything I am not guilty of nor will I accept blame for what someone else is doing that they shouldn't BE doing. ..And I think it's pretty safe to say that others wouldn't either.
This invading my privacy started about six years ago and it's still going on. I was told by Elftowners that if I would just leave Elftown, THIS would all stop, but it has NOT stopped and it's not going to stop until an amicable resolution can be derived or if I pursue avenues until I get it stopped. I would much prefer the fore rather than the latter, but if the fore is made to be undo-able, then the only other alternative I have left is the latter. I want to be afforded the opportunity to understand why it started in the first place, but the only person who can do this, is Hedda, himself, since he knows why, and no one else does. Once I can understand the why, then I can be afforded also the ability to forgive him so he can be freed of the guilt he's harbouring. Agreement is not necessary for understanding to take place. ..And then I could finally put this behind me. Something that is still going on in the present cannot be placed in the past.
Also, if anyone is wondering still why I am willing to work things out amicably with Hedda, take a look at <diary:135588>. Reciprocation is NOT necessary. So enough said. :'(
Oh, don't I know this! If one wants to know who their REAL and TRUE friends are, one will find out when they are going through some hard times in their life. Those who stick by/with a person are REAL and TRUE. Those who don't and/or turn against a person struggling, are FAKE.
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Included here is the link to an image containing two screengrabs combined into one image "of my desktop". The first one (top) shows I was finishing the Dell Stage install and the time showing in the lower right hand corner of my desktop image is "8:45 pm" (my time EST). The second one (bottom) shows Dell Stage is back and is displaying across the lower half of my desktop and the time also displayed is "8:46 pm" (my time EST). BUT... also in the second (bottom) image of my desktop, you can see at the top, just a little left of the center, the "temperature, date, and time" thingy showing data, but for NOT FOR MY AREA, but for "Linkoping, Ostergotland", which is Sweden, which is where a certain "person of interest" lives.
Now here's the accounting of...
On March 14th my computer installed updates and so, I needed to restart my computer for them to take effect. When my computer came back up from the restart, there was a prompt telling me that Dell Stage had an upgrade available. So I went online and proceeded to download it and then I installed it of course. But.. get this, once installed, I suddenly had something "NEW AND DIFFERENT" on my desktop telling me the temperature, date, and time, which had not been there previously, as can be seen also in the top image grabbed BEFORE the installation of the newer Dell Stage was completed. (Witnessed, screengrabbed, documented, and saved with the rest of the data I've collected.)
But... the real kicker? It doesn't show for "my" area or "my" time zone, which is EST (NY). It provides the data for... Linkoping, Ostergotland in "Sweden"!!!
"I" didn't put it there. So, doesn't it seem that there was some kind of intervention? Divine? lol ..And ESPECIALLY since it gives data for Linkoping, Sweden, doesn't it seem fitting to assume that a certain "person of interest" (umm.. divine person of interest... lol) who also, it just so happens, lives in Linkoping, Sweden, could very well have had a hand in its appearing? Am I to begin singing praises for this "person of interest"? lol (Am trying to maintain a sense of humour here. It isn't easy!)
I contemplated looking into its removal, but then I thought, "Eh, I'll just leave it on my desktop for now. I guess it can't hurt to know what time it is in Linkoping and what the temperature is." ...And I'm also a person who believes that some things can be beneficial in disguise if we just kinda' leave them be and just observe. We can learn much from "observation".
So, for about two weeks, it remained on my desktop, although I did need to move it over to the right, so when I displayed my desktop icons, I could see them without this temperature, date, and time thingy interfering. ..And since I screengrab EVERY time I connect and disconnect from the Internet, as well as anything else that may prove beneficial for future reference, I have a full and complete record of this date, time, and temperature thingy remaining on my desktop during a timeframe period of two weeks.
Apparently, however, I was only supposed to have it there for two weeks, because....
On the 27th of March, again, I needed to restart my computer for the same reason.. to install computer updates, but just having to do with my computer, nothing to do with Dell Stage this time. BUT... when I brought my computer back up from the restart, however, the temperature, time, and date thingy was GONE!!! Why, it left just as mysteriously as it came AND it left AFTER I shared this little story with others IN PRIVATE "on MY phone" in what were "supposed to be" PRIVATE CONVERSATIONS!
Addressing "person of interest":
"So, you see, dear sweet, brilliant, resourceful, ingenious, clever man.... give one enough rope, and they will hang themselves. ..ESPECIALLY when the person also sees themselves as "invincible" and "infallible". When an individual deludes themselves, foolishly and fallaciously, into thinking they are "infallible", they then open wide the door and establish the prerequisite to the eventual and ominous fruition of their own "fallibility".
I have offered to you a way out that would not be harmful in any way to you, and in spite of everything, in spite of your childish and immature behaviour, but your stubborn pride and arrogance supersedes your intelligence, and so, therefore, erodes it. What a shame! What a waste!
For a person who advocates for rights and freedoms and resents greed as much as I do, you fail to see how you imprison yourself, all the while trying so diligently to control me, but yet, I'm the one who is free. Lies imprison, truth frees. Brilliance can only shine when practiced for good. ..And only a person who stands accountable for their actions, can expect and deserve respect. My forgiveness awaits, but it's you that has to accept and THIS I cannot do "for" you. Only you can remove the tarnish and allow your brilliance to shine, for it is you that has this choice, this power, and no one else.
I once had a great admiration and respect for you. You amazed me in many ways. ..And it's not that I have lost this sight, it's just that you allow this situation to discolour my sight and leave me with no recourse than to defend myself ..and I really would rather not defend myself against a person who still holds a very special place in my heart. ♥"
..And for ANYONE who can't understand what and or why I'm saying what I am, it's because you aren't in the same place and therefore, the essence of, is beyond your comprehension. We can't speak with conviction and have it hold any strength, if we aren't willing to back it up, especially when we are being put through the test of verification of that which we say. ♥
Here are the screengrabs of my desktop from 2013-03-14, which I first addressed in <diary:135556> about a "temperature, date, and time" thingy appearing on my desktop immediately following a Dell Stage upgrade and installation. In the first screengrab one can see the installation is complete and the time showing in the lower right hand corner is "8:45 pm". My time is EST. In the second screengrab is immediately following and one can see Dell Stage is displayed across and in the lower half of my desktop window and up at the top, just to the left of the center, is the temperature, date, and time for "Linkoping, Ostergotland", which is Sweden. Please note the time displayed on my computer's desktop of "8:46 pm".
First screengrab:
Second screengrab:
So, I ask, WHY would "temperature, date, and time" data for "Linkoping, Ostergotland, Sweden" be placed on "my" desktop? Ring any bells!? O.O
More screwiness with my house! Take a look! I just edited my house to add an Easter image and not only was 'new' text added to the bottom of my house, but then there's this! ...Which I didn't catch in the preview because I scrolled to the top quickly to preview it, but didn't pay any specific attention to the rest, except for the bottom, which I couldn't miss since it's displayed just over the edit area.
Here's what I'm referring to:
SO, HOW OR WHY EXACTLY IS THIS HAPPENING!!!!?
There's something weird going on in my EP house and on my wiki-pages.
When I go to "edit" either, there is either the text area itself that's being messed with or there's text and/or links being added at the very bottom of the editing box. But... these 'newly' made, strange appearances and text disturbances aren't visible until I go to make an edit of the page/house. If I "back up" using my browser, making no new edits, everything is as it was before I hit edit or change personal data. If I re-hit to edit or change personal data, then the strange aforementioned appears once again. ..A few times with a 'different' messing with the text area.
I've been screengrabbing them as they have occurred and for the peculiar added texts and/or links placed in at the very bottom after the [#], I decided to just leave them there. When I first started experiencing this weird behaviour, I was just fixing or hiding it on the editing side.
Here's the latest episode taking place in my house (The highlighted is what's NOT supposed to be there):
1) <img:https://sites.google.com/a/artsieladiegraphics.com/www/_/rsrc/1315271091886/home/2-MetallicButton10x10.png> ~ “An idea ~ http://artsiel
img250:https:/
It's supposed to read like this:
2) <img:https://sites.google.com/a/artsieladiegraphics.com/www/_/rsrc/1315271091886/home/2-MetallicButton10x10.png> ~ “An idea held prisoner in the shadow of silence can never shine in the light of day.”
This is what was thrown into the exampled text, which is highlighted in example #1:
~ http://artsieladie.wordpress.com
img250:https://sites.google.com/a/artsieladiegraphics.com/www/_/rsrc/1363734206492/home/FlyingCupidByArtsieladie2013-02-14_500x613.pngimg:https://sites.google.com/a/artsieladiegraphics.com/www/_/rsrc/1315271091886/home/2-MetallicButton10x10.png
Next, I will upload screengrabs to show more of what I'm trying to explain... brb
Here are the screengrabs depicting what I'm talking about.
This is how example #1 is displaying. As can be clearly seen, it IS MESSED UP!!!!!
Now this is how it's SUPPOSED to look, as in example #2:
As can be CLEARLY seen, the text in the first image is definitely MESSED UP!!! grrrr
Here's something really weird. On the evening of March 14th my computer installed updates and so, I needed to restart my computer for them to take effect. When my computer came back up, there was a prompt telling me that Dell Stage had an upgrade available. So I went online and proceeded to download it and then I installed it of course. But.. get this, once installed, I suddenly had something on my desk top telling me the "temperature, date, and time", which had not been there previously. (screengrabbed and witnessed)
But... wanna' know the real kicker? It didn't show for "my" area or "my" time zone. It provided the data for... Linkoping, Ostergotland in "Sweden"!!!
Now, on the 27th, again, I needed to restart my computer for the same reason.. to install computer updates, but only having to do with my computer, nothing to do with Dell Stage. When I brought my computer back up, however, the "temperature, time, and date" thingy was gone. (screengrabbed and witnessed)
So "I" didn't put it there AND "I" didn't remove it. So, doesn't it seem that there was some kind of "outside" intervention? ..And WHY would it be necessary for the "temperature, date, and time" to be placed on "my" computer and for Linkoping, Ostergotland, Sweden!!??
*sigh* I can remember when the Heddate sites were busy and bustling. Now they are virtually dead. But then, Karma does circle back around, doesn't it?
There's nothing to do here, nothing to get interested in to get involved with and even if there was, there isn't anyone here to speak of to spark interest with. :(
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